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“Any astrologer would have advised them not to start a war then because this position means they’ll become extremely bogged down, and the Iraq War will never end for them” the UP!, April 21.
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contents
p.3 THE 10 KEY LIES know them and you know next month’s news!
p.5 NEO TANTRICS UN(CORNER)ED UP! LETTER OF THE WEEK from Pandora
p.6 The Strange (exhilarating) Case Of The Jealousy That Didn’t Bark :) - more ErotoRomantiSexuaLove memories with fraser
p.12 SOME LIES EVEN THE LACKEYS REFUSED TO DELIVER!
p.14 NASTY DODGY LYING CHICKEN HAWKS!
Bush was a Deserter, CHeney and Gingrich were draft dodgers etc etc etc etc!!!!
p.16 Why Sustainable Agriculture?
p.21 The Wannabe Rock Star/Model’s Tale
[Fraser’s Tantra/Jealousy Diary Part 2]
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IRAQGAIT
!!!!!!!!!! (out of Kuwait:) !!!!!!!!!!
WATERGATE INVOLVED A COUPLA BURGLARIES
THESE GUYS BURGLARISED WHOLE COUNTRIES!
"their armoured karma ran over their dog, ma!"
Yes, it’s curtains for History’s Greatest Scmuck
from here on in, pretty much, the “mob” smells blood and jumps
bandwagons, and it’s the beginning of the (always inevitable)
Final Collapse of the Dinosaurs’ Last Stand, a spectacular,
slow motion Fall on to the Fossil Record, there to twitch in disgrace,
as everyone claims they were against it all along,
till the embarrassed public’s attention moves on to sorting out the mess.
If you want to know what they’ll be ‘discovering’ in the media,
read these last 4 UP! because it all seems to ‘surface’ in the end.
like turds in H2O
thank goddess!
so u won’t be needing an UP! to know which way UP is
for the next 2 weeks, WHICH IS GOOD BECAUSE WE’RE OFF
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OPEN COUNTRY STUFF! ‘Bye!
C U WHEN I C U!
fraser.
UP! Singer to musician: "Can you play something like (so-and-so) would play?" ["I really wanted (so-and-so) on this record."]
* * * * * * * * * * * * * ASTRAL ENERGY ANALYSIS FOR WEEK OF JULY 16-22 * * * * * * * * * * * *
ASSERTIVE MARS IS TOP DOG THIS WEEK
Mars is becoming ever more brilliant.
It’s getting closer to earth than it’s been
for tens of thousands of years.
You can see it orange and brilliant
in the early morning southwestern sky.
Mars means action. We go for what we want.
But subconscious forces have a very large play now,
and we might simply sow chaos.
Look before you leap into some problematical energy.
For details, see Maya’s Daily Success Guide at
www.daykeeperjournal.com
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UP! Drummer to bassist: "Can you hear the kick drum?" Translation: "We're not locking....!!”
Machines that Reproduce May become Reality!
Researchers have created a primordial soup that works like a digital DNA factory, where T-shaped "codons" swim in a computer-generated virtual liquid forming single, double, and even triple strands.
But here’s the point! Just like DNA, these digital particles "can be assembled into patterns that encode" information!
http://www.kurzweilai.net/email/newsRedirect.html?newsID=2152&m=5435
UP!
"To put it bluntly, if Bush has taken Congress and the nation into war based on bogus information, he is cooked. Manipulation or deliberate misuse of national security intelligence data, if proven, could be 'a high crime' under the Constitution's impeachment clause. It would also be a violation of federal criminal law, including the broad federal anti- conspiracy statute, which renders it a felony 'to defraud the United States, or any agency thereof in any manner or for any purpose.'" John Dean (legal adviser to President Nixon at the time of Watergate from an article posted at:
http://writ.news.findlaw.com/dean/20030606.html
UP! Musician to producer or artist: "This song sounds like a hit.” ["This song sounds like another song, what was it called?" ]
WEEK OF JULY 16-22
ASSERTIVE MARS IS TOP DOG THIS WEEK
Mars is becoming ever more brilliant.
It’s getting closer to earth than it’s been
for tens of thousands of years.
You can see it orange and brilliant
in the early morning south-western sky.
Mars means action. We go for what we want.
But subconscious forces have a very large play now,
and we might simply sow chaos.
Look before you leap into some problematical energy.
UP! Session Musician to engineer. "Could we have more band in the phones?" Translation: "The singer’s too fookin loud in the phones!”
IGNORE THE FLAK BEING RELEASED IN THE SKIES. TO WIN THE PRIZE, KEEP YOUR EYES ON THE 10 KEY LIES
1. The Niger Lie.
Blair's claimed the reason to target Iraq in the first place in summer 2002 was because he had convincing intelligence that Iraq was trying to build nuclear weapons. When the weapons inspectors were finally given the Niger documents in February 2003, they ascertained within hours that the documents were crude forgeries.
In his state of the union address the month before, in January 2003, Bush had said that Blair had presented him with evidence of Iraq's nuclear capability.
Of course, as UPPers know, the CIA had informed Cheney in Spring 2002 that the Niger documents were forgeries, which, the same official says, the US government warned the UK about.
The Niger documents originally came from Blair's ally Berlusconi.
2. 45 Minutes In the Mix.
The issue is not the smokescreen Blair and Campbell have put up (did they falsify intelligence reports?) but that Blair knowingly misrepresented an unreliable report from a single uncorroborated source as a solid fact, lying to Parliament.
3. Full Support Of Whitehall Civil Servants
Blair has claimed that he had the full support of Whitehall civil servants for his assertions. But the Commons Foreign Affairs Select Committee reported that Campbell chaired meetings of the Joint Intelligence Committee.
Further, the Cabinet Committee responsible for the war preparations was rarely attended by Brown or Prescott.
Even further, its power was usurped by a smaller committee which consisted only of Blair and a handful of special advisors.
4. The Dodgy Dossier.
As we go to press, Blair stands by this document. Campbell has apologised for it. Blair lied to Parliament by stating that this document came from intelligence sources. In fact it was mainly plagiarised from the UP! ah, an old internet doc.
5. The French Veto.
In the days before the war Blair's henchmen, led by Gordon Brown (who came on board very late, suggesting large reservations), stated they were ignoring the UN because the French had promised to veto any resolution for war. In fact Chirac had said they’d veto a resolution before the arms inspectors had been given time to report! Chirac confirmed he’d support a war if the inspectors reported they were thwarted.
6. The Iraqi Non-Compliance.
Blair's people claimed Iraq was not complying with UN resolutions. Many suspect it was precisely because Hans Blix was saying all outstanding issues had been resolved that the invasion went ahead.
7. The Alleged Chemical Weapons Stocks.
Bush and Blair repeated figures of massive alleged stocks of precursors and chemical weapons based on unaccounted imports from around 1990. However they must have known that these materials would have degraded and become unusable.
8. The Second Resolution.
Blair implied for months that he would only go to war if a second US resolution explicitly backed an invasion. This acted as a smokescreen to avoid the question of whether a unilateral attack was illegal. As recently as January 2003 Blair implied that he would only defy the UN if there was an `unreasonable veto`, a term which as a lawyer Blair knows is nonsense.
9. The Democracy Lie.
Blair and Bush always claimed that their subordinate motive was to bring democracy to Iraq. However the occupation forces have now threatened any Iraqi who calls for a US/UK withdrawal from Iraq, even using peaceful democratic means. They have announced plans to establish permanent bases in Iraq and stated that they intend to stay there for years.
9. The Afghan Lie.
Blair said in autumn 2001 during and after the Afghan invasion that there would be an attack on Iraq only with `one hundred percent proof` that Iraq was involved in the 911 attacks.
[pro-net.co.uk]
UP! Musician to writer: "This song has nice changes." [”Amazing what you can do with 2 chords"]
//YOU FEEDBACK: NEO TANTRICS UN(CORNER)ED
UP! LETTER OF THE WEEK from Pandora
Hi Fraser,
I was pretty much on the verge of trying to get off this list when i suddenly started to read some rambling ideas about love and the nature of marriage. I got hooked (the rest of the stuff i don't bother much with) having been rather preoccupied with this theme most of my life.
I just want to share with you that i too find the whole idea of marriage rather sheepish, and i’ve been contemptuous for many of the same reasons you express.
Last year my partner of 6 years fell in love with another woman and i found myself face to face with the question: what is love really? i mean I was jealous and afraid and wished her to the moon, yet simultaneously I knew deep down that this was a cheap love that only wanted to possess and own its object (which is basically what i thought marriage is ultimately really about too). Is it really not in our nature for a man or woman to love more than one?
A year later the 7 year relationship ended, but, as a result of staying with that question and refusing to submit to those cheap feelings towards this other woman (who was transparently a wonderful being) I now find myself quite unexpectedly on the dance floor again with her and another man whom we both mutually love in an open relationship.
It has been the sanest, healthiest, cleanest and most loving relationship i’ve ever known. We’re not married or marrying, but we are committed to expressing love and giving and serving the best in each other. We don't know how long it will last and it doesn't matter. It is now. Is there anything other than NOW?
I live in a small community. Many people know - some support, others think it’s a deranged set-up which will all end in tears. I doubt it will actually - no-one in it is looking for a parent, and we are quite capable of taking care of ourselves. Taking care of each other is an expression of fullness, not need, nor is it a case of I’ll stroke you if you stroke me.
I know now it can work.
I accept that marriage can be just the thing for those who need and want such a thing. It isn't bad or wrong, and I now accept it to be right for those who want to do a work of growing something from scratch and sustaining it through hell and high water.
But equally I look forward to the day when those who label people like us freaks, ignorant and lacking basic intelligence can also accept other models of relationship and recognise the courage it takes to step outside the 9 dots and carve our own paths, guided by the heartfelt desire to live love at the highest we can imagine.
By the way, so small and close knit is my community that I must ask you to keep my identikit secret. It isn't easy standing for this anyway and I’m not a masochist. I’ve come to see that this issue is very inflammatory. Women in particular are very threatened by the idea of opening their relationship, and the hardest part of this whole relationship turns out to be dealing with other people’s negative projections.
The open loving bit is a stretch but quite doable.
Thanks for the space for free thinking best wishes
Pandora / Human World [real name withheld]
UP!
Stonehenge it’s a...
VAGINA MONOLITH!
Stonehenge is 4,000 years old but its purpose has remained a mystery. Some researchers have claimed the stone circles were used as a giant computer; others that it was an observatory to study the stars and predict the seasons; a few have even argued that its rings acted as a docking pad for alien spaceships.
Now a University of British Columbia researcher, after several years of investigating the great prehistoric monument, has announced its true meaning: it’s a giant fertility symbol in the shape of the female sexual organ!
'There was a concept in Neolithic times of a great Earth Mother,' says Anthony Perks, a gynaecologist who decided to investigate the idea that the circles could have symbolic anatomical links. 'Stonehenge could represent the opening by which the Earth Mother birthed the plants and animals on which ancient people so depended.'
Published in the Journal of the Royal Society of Medicine, Perks's analysis claims the critical events in the lives of the builders of Stonehenge - who began their work around 3,000 BC - were births and deaths in their families and community. And yet there is no evidence of any burials near Stonehenge! Why?! 'There is little sign of death; no tombs, because it was a place of life and birth, not death, a place that looked to the future.'
Evidence that the monument was dominated by ideas of creation and regeneration has been overlooked until now, says Perks.
- · Take the inner circle, which consists of pairs of massive capped rock pillars, one of which is rough and the other carefully smoothed. 'To a biologist, the smooth and rougher stones arranged in pairs, united by heavy lintels, suggest that male and female, father and mother, joined together,' he states.
- · Even more convincing, he says, is the similarity between an aerial shot of Stonehenge and the female sexual organ. Of these features, the most important concern the central empty area that is enclosed by the monument's inner circle of giant bluestones. 'This central area is empty because it represents the opening to the world, the birth canal. Stonehenge was therefore constructed to honour the Earth Mother for 'giving both life and livelihood'.
- · Stonehenge's well established alignment with various astronomical events such as the rising of mid-winter and mid-summer sun fits with notions of an Earth Mother partnered with a Sun Father. Stonehenge celebrated their association, a place where people celebrated the Sun's closest approach to Earth in summer, while in winter they prayed for the pair to reunite.
Robin McKie / The Observer.
http://observer.guardian.co.uk/uk_news/story/0,6903,992215,00.html
UP!
The Strange (exhilarating) Case
Of The Jealousy That Didn’t Bark :)
Paranoia feeling hatred, suspicion and fear towards a rival
THE CARD FROM MY 21 YEAR OLD ex- TANTRINI
WHICH LAST WEEK ENCOURAGED ME TO
TRY ONCE AGAIN TO REVIVE OUR UNION...
Dear Fraser,
Just a hello to let you know our conversation in the cafe did not go unheeded, and that I didn’t consider our connection to be some sort of whimsical irrelevance, but something answered to sincerely, confusedly, lovingly,
Gertrude Stein said: ‘Considering how dangerous things are, nothing in this world is really frightening.’ Would still like to introduce you to Christine when she visits and you to introduce me to Lizzy. I’m curious. And curious + curiouser. Be seeing you.
love
Nancy.
The day after i received that, my good friend Andrew spotted positive interpretations I hadn’t even noticed! The reference to fear could be because she now realised how I’d helped free her of it! The reference to Christine could be a discreet sexual reference to the 3-some I’d suggested when she’d told me about her schooldays soul mate who’d gone astray into Yuppiedom, as could her reference to Lizzy, the local Dominatrix I befriended in the park walking our dogs.
But she pretty much shot 2 of those suggestions down when I called. Still, we made a date for Sunday. (She wants to be a “friend” but I’ve been saying it won’t work as I have scores of friends in the city whom I never see because we are not doing things together!)
Night of the Great No Jealousy
I don’t want to overstate things, but this feeling bubbling in me after yesterday evening with Nancy seems very very special. It feels like a First! And it feels like it’s exactly the right Fast Forward on the Path I want to follow.
We were both somewhat exhausted. I’ll skip the earlier details, except her mentioning again that would I be all right if we were “good friends”. And me, flopping from strong to weak by the second (heh heh). In this case, at my local cafe, I pretended to think she meant “this evening?” and she followed me down there.
When we got back to the pad, around 8pm, we both lay down to rest, she on the couch, me on the floor, on the “Love Bed”, our Lovebed, for I only finally got it together after it was over with P.
I knew Nancy wouldn’t be able to do it for long, and she couldn’t; soon she was picking up items and asking what they were, Phil’s Business Advice pamphlet etc, so I suggested she read my “Sex Diary” (the UP! one, not the real one, nobody’s ready for that one yet!)
She sat at the computer reading for 10 minutes (her biggest laugh, when I enquired, was N saying she gave the Tantra book to her boyfriend “to give him ideas”) Then she wanted to write a sex story she had in her mind (these “pictures ” she’d mentioned a few times that evening). I said “Yeah, I’d love you to write something on sex - it could go in the Diary!”
Well, she spent the next several hours at it (not writing all the time but sitting there dreamily, exhaustedly) Me, I watched 4 consecutive episodes of 24 Hours which happened to come on tv, then I had a bath or was that before? and I gave all the kitchen surfaces a good clean.
Lover Clearing the Deck. I was feeling content, if disappointed. My first 21 year old fling of the Diary was probably over, I’d already accepted and adjusted to that. Only her post card had made me call her one more time, and tonight she’d pretty much denied all of James’ positive interpretations. Even the she’d come across somewhere (probably on a Jimmi Hendrix album, her great hero :) and as for Christine, she just wanted her to meet “good people” when she came up to London.
Around 2am (!) I demanded to get on-line myself, and she returned to the couch i.e. not the bed. She asked at one point in that irritated tone of hers she’s been adopting recently how long I would be and I said: “You can always use the bed, babe, you know it doesn’t imply anything you don’t want”. She stayed on the couch and finally fell asleep.
She’d saved it somewhere under some name which she knew I couldn’t know. But, since I knew she’d done it in Word, I just looked up the last doc...
Whew. I’ve inserted it below.
She’d spent the night before in a studio with several black guys, “recording” and taking ‘e’ with them, and then shagging this 40 year old married black “professional” musician who told her he “used to be a player but now I have a missus.”
NOW HERE’S WHAT’S SO GREAT!!! I almost wrote “I didn’t care!” but one part, one ‘I’ in me, does care (old, dying? dead?) While pretending not be reading it (she was aware I could probably find it) I was watching the patterns of jealousy rise below me, like hungry clouds, searching for, beckoning for, almost pleading for a similar pattern in “Me” to respond, like cogs meshing into some Ancient Binding Conflict/Competition, and nothing, nothing came forth from within me, nothing to make a manifestation!
I should be angry? at what?! that she’d shagged someone the night before she was due to meet me?! (yet I remember how guilty I’d felt playing with Lizzy’s breasts that morning with Nancy in my bed upstairs). How inconsiderate of her to arrive “shagged out”, izzat it?! Or she made it with a black muso, trust Nancy to come up with Whitey’s Ultimate Paranoia heh heh! It had never entered my mind she’d be into other guys, yeah right.
My ‘machine’ (Fraser) keeps turning it over, and programming for a downer, a bummer, a Great Gloom, but “There is no corresponding connection in My Computer”, IT’S JUST NOT THERE!
Paranoia - feeling hatred, suspicion and fear towards a rival.
But I don’t have a rival! I’m not in a competition! He says he’s not even a “player” any more. My dream was to be able to encourage her to take lovers, even to help her find them, as she would with me. I mean, at the very worst I’m where I’ve been this last decade, but now with 2 great ErotoRomantiSexuaLove memories about which I have no regrets :)
But that’s looking back. And the whole thing about this New Feeling (or absence) is what it promises for the Future! I feel the first flush of, what? Indifference? No. Freedom from Jealousy. But that’s a negative. Is there no positive in this xtian language?! Not Love, because I’m not particularly GLAD for her. I actually wish she would have stayed longer with our thing. I’d told her earlier of “how far I felt we’d progressed, I had this vision, finally, of a real way forward, a vision where you and I grew into an openly intimate team, exploring other people ourselves and sharing those journeys with each other, and having this very very special Trust and Closeness behind all the instances of everyone else we’d been with.” etc.
This experience of being Free of Jealousy, of Possessiveness! Really not being worried by it! This feels AMAZING! It’s a Promise! Spermatic with potential for what the Future can now hold. SO MUCH ENERGY AM NOT LOSING NOW AND WILL NOT LOSE IN THE FUTURE! POWER!!
Now I’ve tried for open relationships all my adult life. And, on some levels, successfully achieved them (if you don’t count finally parting as failure) But, even at the best, even when I was able to hide my jealousy beneath a cool which still fairly and honourably allowed her to feel free, I always still had a deep ache in my gut, a deep burning jealousy with images that would torture me. I ‘believed’ innit, but never got there, not even close.
But now! Like I wrote in the hand diary last week: “I’ve been turned down by more women in the last 3 months than in my whole life!”. Which is because I’m losing my pride. Apart from anything else, I’m older and can’t just sit back and effortlessly attract them any more. I gotta go out into the Unknown and risk my Sense of Inner Security, and fail. And what’s so bad about that?! Suddenly I see my “Pride”! God how many doors has this stupid thing kept closed for me throughout my life!! What a useless appendage, designed purely to close down doors. How many women I could have known were it not for my pride’s fear of being turned down! But who cares! Enough don’t turn you down!
You expect everyone?! Then you get very few. I mean there are clearly enough ladies out there for all of us there’s no shortage!
Detachment. It just keeps expanding. How much time I’ve wasted! Yet, once you realise, and grok how late in your life you’re realising, IT DOESN’T MATTER! It’s about Now! and the Future! And this Non-Identification feels sweet and packed with spiritual promise (some bittersweet but even that fees like it may just be “pockets of resistance” of old patterns in the very act of dying)
I read her story like it’s got nothing to do with ME. And it doesn’t! Why should she have thought about me?! It really doesn’t have anything to do with me! I can’t be a rival of someone I don’t even know. He’s probably (possibly?) a ‘rival’ like Pandora described - “a wunnerful human being”. These things are (or should be) happening all the time, to all of us! What blocks this natural flow is Possessiveness, getting ‘stuck’.
>> In his body is a solid muscular power.
I simply have to accept, when Nancy writes of fancying the guy’s body, that mine ain’t so no more. She never fancied my body, I see that now. She saw my handsomeness more than once, and my Being, but she never fancied my body. (I couldn’t have owned up to that 3 months ago!)
Not that I’m in bad shape (like Andrew who’s puffed out on his young live-in lover’s home cooking) but THANK GODDESS I’M NOT OVER IDENTIFIED WITH THE BODY! that would be living hell. My actual experience is that, well, there it is, now there it goes. I’ve not missed out on many things with it :) though several more with max attention to detail would be... a Blessing!
I’m ready, and parts of me are even eager (and even going ahead!) for the Next Step (most people don’t feel like that am sure) Meanwhile, we all must play within the rules, and that’s it. If some guys were managing to dodge it that would be another matter! i must extract (no, I choose to extract and don’t need) what’s still there in potential, to the full.
And as for “being friends” I don’t voice this to her but I think: what have you to give me? I can give you some Wisdom, Trust, Experience (incl Sex and the Emotional Brain) Contacts, but (and this I feel) with you, if I’m not relating to the whole of you, then the bits are not that appealing. How could they be? What do you have to give (forget even what you would give)? A great voice?! and “sweet young titties”?!
I’m immensely grateful for the erotic we explored. I got no complaints, I just wish it had gone further! I never even got to see her belly dance! [cont. below: The Wannabe Rock Star/Model’s Tale p. ]
UP! Musician to producer: "I don't think we'll beat the magic of that first take”. ["Please don't make us play this piece of shit again."]
IRAQ CIVILIAN DEATH COUNT PASSES 6000 +
MALNUTRITION/DEHYDRATION/DISEASE/DESPAIR & RADIATION
New information from remote locations of Iraq has pushed up the civilian death toll from the U.S.-led war by 500 in the last month to at least 6,000, an Anglo-American research group says.
The Iraq Body Count's (IBC) latest figures, based on media reports and more than a dozen counting projects from independent investigators in and outside Iraq, put the minimum number of civilians dead at 6,055 and the maximum at 7,706.
"If you look at a map of Iraq, there are still a lot of places, that you would imagine allied troops have gone through, where there have been no reports of killings yet, simply because no journalist or researcher has gone there," said Sloboda, a psychology professor from Britain's Keele University.
"Then there are the deaths by malnutrition and dehydration as a consequence of the war which we haven't even started talking about.".
The United States and Britain have repeatedly stressed their tactics were designed to keep civilian casualties to a minimum. But they are declining to give estimates.
"We made every effort to reduce civilian casualties by a careful targeting policy," a spokesman for Britain's Ministry of Defence said.
http://www.reuters.co.uk/newsPackageArticle.jhtml?type=topNews&storyID=335889
UP! Producer to band: "Let's take a break and come back and try one more." ["I think I'm having a nervous breakdown."]
"I'M NOT READING THIS. THIS IS BULLSHIT!"
US Secretary of State Colin Powell was under persistent pressure from the Pentagon and White House to include questionable intelligence in his U.N. report on Iraq's weapons of mass destruction, according to a US weekly .
US News and World Report magazine said the first draft of the speech was prepared for Powell by Vice President Richard Cheney's chief of staff, Lewis "Scooter" Libby, in late January. But the draft contained such questionable material that Powell lost his temper, throwing several pages in the air and declaring, "I'm not reading this. This is bullshit."
AND HERE ARE SOME LIES
EVEN THE LACKEYS REFUSED TO DELIVER!
Cheney's aides wanted Powell to include information
- · that Iraq had purchased computer software that would allow it to plan an attack on the United States! [not supported by the CIA, US News reported]
- · that the suspected leader of the September 11 hijackers, Mohammed Atta, had met in Prague with an Iraqi intelligence officer prior to the attacks [US and European intelligence agencies refused to confirm the meeting, the magazine said]
The pressure forced Powell to appoint his own review team that met several times with Central Intelligence Agency Director George Tenet and national security adviser Condoleezza Rice to prepare the speech, in which the secretary of state accused Iraq of hiding tonnes of biological and chemical weapons.
Despite a Defense Intelligence Agency classified assessment of Iraq's chemical weapons program in September which found "no reliable information on whether Iraq is producing and stockpiling chemical weapons," Rumsfeld told Congress shortly after that “the Iraqi regime has amassed large, clandestine stockpiles of chemical weapons, including VX, sarin, cyclosarin, and mustard gas," according to the report.
UP! Musician to guitarist: "Can you hear yourself okay?" ["You're too fookin loud in the phones!"]
DON'T SIT ON DOCUMENTS WHILE THE KILLING CONTINUES
"My biggest regret is that I waited to leak the Pentagon Papers when we needed the truth yesterday. The most important lesson from my experience is this: Don't sit on documents, don't wait to come out with the truth. Don't wait while the bombing and the killing continue." Daniel Ellsberg, who leaked the Pentagon Papers.
http://www.ellsberg.net
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“The Complicity of the United States President”
FORGED REPORTS MAKE THE WORLD GO ROUND - IN CIRCLES
"I have in my possession a secret map, made in Germany by Hitler's government - by planners of the New World Order. It is a map of South America ... as Hitler proposes to reorganize it. ... This map makes clear the Nazi design, not only against South America but against the United States as well." FDR , Oct. 27, 1941, [public sentiment was well against getting involved at this time]
*** The map was a forgery by British agent Ivar Bryce, working under Churchill's man William Stephenson, who’d been given his mission: Provoke America to go to war with Germany.
The most striking feature of Bryce's fake map "was the complicity of the president of the United States in perpetrating this fraud." Nicholas Cul, "Selling War: The British Propaganda Campaign Against American 'Neutrality' in World War II."
“I also have,” he informed the America First Committee, “a Nazi document detailing plans to abolish all existing religions, liquidate all clergy and create an 'International Nazi Church.' In the place of the Bible, the words of 'Mein Kampf' will be imposed and enforced in a Holy Writ. And in the place of the cross of Christ will be put two symbols - the swastika and the naked sword. ... The God of Blood and Iron will take the place of the God of Love and Mercy."
*** These Nazi plans for eradicating Christianity were never found.
In his address to Congress calling for war, after Pearl Harbor, FDR did not even mention Germany. Hitler declared war on America because of the provocation of FDR's speech and the fake map!
QUESTION: WHO FORGED THE NIGER DOCUMENT? WHO PUT THE LIE IN THE PRESIDENT'S STATE OF THE UNION ADDRESS?
Bush gives the British government as his source (the heirs of Bryce and Stephenson). The Brits point to the CIA. The Washington Post says a foreign intelligence agency was the source. CNN cites officials who said it was not the Brits or Mossad. Lately, Italy has popped up as a possible source - and the Iraqi National Congress of Ahmed Chalabi.
The forgery is a war crime and so crude it suggests the author knew his recipient wanted it so badly he wouldn’t bother to verify it.
The forgery is a deliberate provocation of the United States to instigate a war on a country that did not threaten America.
With American and British ravers dying in Iraq with no end in sight, we have a right to know WHO LIED US INTO WAR.
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NASTY DODGY LYING CHICKEN HAWKS!
George Bush was not, as you might have heard, an AWOL during his Air National Guard stint. AWOL (Absent Without Official Leave) applies to absences of up to 30 days. Beyond that it’s Desertion; Bush ain’t a mere AWOL, he’s a Deserter! Penalty in peacetime - imprisonment in Leavenworth; in wartime maybe death by firing squad.
The US was “defending freedom in Vietnam” the whole time Lt. Bush was a Deserter (May, ‘72 - May, ‘73). He signed up, took his pay, then failed to report for duty at the Alabama Air National Guard to which he’d successfully requested transfer. In Aug72, an Air National Guard order suspended Lt. Bush from flying status for “failure to accomplish annual medical examination””
>> Military testing for illicit drug use began about this time :)
BUT BUSH IS JUST A LITTLE CHICKEN HAWK
WOTTABOUT THE BIG COCK HAWKS?!
DODGED THE DRAFT
VP Cheney, Atty. Gen. John Ashcroft, Karl Rove, Newt Gingrich, “B-1 Bob” Dornan (dodged Korean War but enlisted after it.), Speaker Hastert, Dick Armey, House Maj. Leader Tom Delay , Trent Lott.
NON-SERVERS
Gov. Jeb Bush, Sens. Frist and Santorum, Paul Wolfowitz, Vin Weber, Richard Perle, Eliot Abrams.
SERVICE AVOIDERS
(who used their media positions to promote that war)
George Will, Chris Matthews, Bill O’Reilly, Pat Buchanan, Paul Gigot, Bill Bennett, Rush Limbaugh (4-F due to an anal cyst), Michael Savage, Pat Robertson, Bill Kristol, Ralph Reed. + Justices Antonin Scalia and Clarence Thomas.
“Bring'em on!”
[Irish News Inc. remix]
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DISAPPEARED?
SAN FRANCISCO CHRONICLE, PAGE ONE, last June: an Associated Press photo of a mass of demonstrators carries the caption: TENS OF THOUSANDS OF VENEZUELANS OPPOSED TO PRESIDENT HUGO CHAVEZ...
The caption says this South American potentate was a killer, an autocrat, and the people of his nation wanted him out. It continued: "Venezuelans marched to demand his resignation and punishment for those responsible for 17 deaths during a coup in April. 'CHAVEZ LEAVE NOW!' read a huge banner."
There was no actual story -- South America simply isn't worth wasting words on. But the Chronicle made it clear that Venezuelans hated their terrible president, and all you needed was this photo to prove it.
I had recently returned from Caracas and had filmed 100,000 march against Chavez for BBC Television London. But nothing from my film of OVER 200,000 VENEZUELANS marching in support of their president appeared in a single U.S. newspaper! The pro-Chavez marchers weren't worth a mention.
And by the following month, when the New York Times printed a photo of anti-Chavez marchers, it reported that 600,000 had protested against Chavez!
Once again, the larger pro-Chavez demonstrations were, as they say in Latin America, "disappeared." I guess they didn't fit the print.
Greg Palast, AlterNet
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Why Sustainable Agriculture?
Professor of Genetics Mae Wan Ho at the Open University
(She is not funded by industry, has been free to say what she really thinks, and has been campaigning about it for about ten years.)
1. Higher productivity and yields, especially in the Third World
Some 8.98 million farmers have adopted sustainable agriculture practices on 28.92 million hectares in Asia, Latin America and Africa. Reliable data from 89 projects show higher productivity and yields: 50-100% increase in yield for rained crops, and 5-10% for irrigated crops. Top successes include Burkina Faso, which turned a cereal deficit of 644 kg per year to an annual surplus of 153 kg; Ethiopia, where 12 500 households enjoyed 60% increase in crop yields; and Honduras and Guatemala, where 45 000 families increased yields from 400-600 kg/ha to 2 000-2 500 kg/ha.
Long-term studies in industrialised countries show yields for organic comparable to conventional agriculture, and sometimes higher.
2. Better soils
Sustainable agricultural practices tend to reduce soil erosion, as well as improve soil physical structure and water-holding capacity, which are crucial in averting crop failures during periods of drought. Soil fertility is maintained or increased by various sustainable agriculture practices. Studies show that soil organic matter and nitrogen levels are higher in organic than in conventional fields. Biological activity has also been found to be higher in organic soils. There are more earthworms, arthropods, mycorrhizal and other fungi, and micro-organisms, all of which are beneficial for nutrient recycling and suppression of disease.
3. Cleaner environment
There is little or no polluting chemical-input with sustainable agriculture. Moreover, research suggests that less nitrate and phosphorus are leached to groundwater from organic soils. Better water infiltration rates are found in organic systems. Therefore, they are less prone to erosion and less likely to contribute to water pollution from surface runoff.
4. Reduced pesticides and no increase in pests
Organic farming prohibits routine pesticide application. Integrated pest management has cut the number of pesticide sprays in Vietnam from 3.4 to one per season, in Sri Lanka from 2.9 to 0.5 per season, and in Indonesia from 2.9 to 1.1 per season.
Research showed no increase in crop losses due to pest damage, despite the withdrawal of synthetic insecticides in Californian tomato production. Pest control is achievable without pesticides, reversing crop losses, as for example, by using "trap crops" to attract stem borer, a major pest in East Africa.
Other benefits of avoiding pesticides arise from utilising the complex inter-relationships between species in an ecosystem.
5. Supporting biodiversity and using diversity
Sustainable agriculture promotes agricultural biodiversity, which is crucial for food security and rural livelihoods. Organic farming can also support much greater biodiversity, benefiting species that have significantly declined. Biodiverse systems are more productive than monocultures. Integrated farming systems in Cuba are 1.45 to 2.82 times more productive than monocultures. Thousands of Chinese rice farmers have doubled yields and nearly eliminated the most devastating disease simply by mixed planting of two varieties. Soil biodiversity is enhanced by organic practices, bringing beneficial effects such as recovery and rehabilitation of degraded soils, improved soil structure and water infiltration.
6. Environmentally & economically sustainable
Research on apple production systems ranked the organic system first in environmental and economic sustainability, the integrated system second and the conventional system last. Organic apples were most profitable due to price premiums, quicker investment return and fast recovery of costs.
A Europe-wide study has show that organic farming performs better than conventional farming in the majority of environmental indicators.
A review by the Food and Agriculture Organization of the United Nations (FAO) concluded that well-managed organic agriculture leads to more favourable conditions at all environmental levels.
7. Ameliorating climate change by reducing direct & indirect energy use
Organic agriculture uses energy much more efficiently, and greatly reduces CO2 emissions compared with conventional agriculture, both with respect to direct energy consumption in fuel and oil and indirect consumption in synthetic fertilisers and pesticides. Sustainable agriculture restores soil organic matter content, increasing carbon sequestration below ground, thereby recovering an important carbon sink.
Organic systems have shown significant ability to absorb and retain carbon, raising the possibility that sustainable agriculture practices can help reduce the impact of global warming. Organic agriculture is likely to emit less nitrous dioxide (N2O), another important greenhouse gas and also a cause of stratospheric ozone depletion.
8. Efficient, profitable production
Any yield reduction in organic agriculture is more than offset by ecological and efficiency gains. Research has shown that the organic approach can be commercially viable in the long-term, producing more food per unit of energy or resources.
Data show that smaller farms produce far more per unit area than the larger farms characteristic of conventional farming. Though the yield per unit area of one crop may be lower on a small farm than on a large monoculture, the total output per unit area, often composed of more than a dozen crops and various animal products, can be far higher.
Production costs for organic farming are often lower than for conventional farming, bringing equivalent or higher net returns even without organic price premiums. When price premiums are factored in, organic systems are almost always more profitable.
9. Improved food security and benefits to local communities
A review of sustainable agriculture projects in developing countries showed that average foodproduction per household increased by 1.71 tonnes per year (up 73%) for 4.42 million farmers on 3.58 million hectares, bringing food security and health benefits to local communities. Increasing agricultural productivity has been shown to also increase food supplies and raise incomes, thereby reducing poverty, increasing access to food, reducing malnutrition and improving health and livelihoods.
Sustainable agricultural approaches draw extensively on traditional and indigenous knowledge, and place emphasis on the farmers’ experience and innovation. This thereby utilises appropriate, low-cost and readily available local resources as well as improves farmers’ status and autonomy, enhancing social and cultural relations within local communities. Local means of sale and distribution can generate more money for the local economy. For every £1 spent at an organic box scheme from Cusgarne Organics (UK), £2.59 is generated for the local economy; but for every £1 spent at a supermarket, only £1.40 is generated for the local economy.
10. Better food quality for health
Organic food is safer, as organic farming prohibits routine pesticide and herbicide use, so harmful chemical residues are rarely found. Organic production also bans the use of artificial food additives such as hydrogenated fats, phosphoric acid, aspartame and monosodium glutamate, which have been linked to health problems as diverse as heart disease, osteoporosis, migraines and hyperactivity.
Studies have shown that, on average, organic food has higher vitamin C, higher mineral levels and higher plant phenolics (plant compounds that can fight cancer and heart disease, and combat age-related neurological dysfunctions) and significantly less nitrates, a toxic compound.
Sustainable agricultural practices have proven beneficial in all aspects relevant to health and the environment. In addition, they bring food security and social and cultural well-being to local communities everywhere. There is anurgent need for a comprehensive global shift to all forms of sustainable agriculture.
The Institute of Science in Society, PO Box 32097, London NW1 OXR [+44 20 8643 0681]
http://www.i-sis.org.uk
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//YOU FEEDBACK: NEO TANTRICS UN(CORNER)ED
COVAH YER HEADz!
since when is patriarchy over?
>> b4 you get into your stride, my entire point was it’s over in the bedroom but still running the planet, ok?
the last time i looked at my government it was mostly white, rich, and male. while patriarchy isn't the only type of oppression out there, womyn still face tonnes of shit as a result of it.
>> public life again. am talking about the bedroom. where the change starts?
please do not dismiss feminism just because womyn got the vote and we work as professionals now. while it's great that in the ‘western world’ we have so many rights and good work opportunities, it is still important to look at statistics. 1 in 2 womyn have faced some sort of violent/sexual harassment according to stats canada. if you were to take the present statistics and make "men" and "womyn" sovereign nations men would have officially declared war on womyn by UN standards. lastly you cannot ignore the statistic that 3/4 of the world's poor people are womyn.
>> neotantrics believe (hoo!) that the Change is well on its way in the bed and will naturally and unstoppably radiate out from there. NOT from government, which will always be the FINAL place the change hits, indeed they can’t do much till the public has first got there itself.
while i appreciate UP! i can never read a full bulletin because of shit like this.
>> u mean u get so angry u have to stop? but then can’t resist looking again next time? hey, guys’ngals, it’s working! :)
the last issue i looked at on your website i saw tonnes of "zionist bildibergers" crap and i was like who is this guy and why aren't people calling him on this shit?
some jews have money, some christians have money, some muslims have money.......... the people who have money are spending it. they're spending it on suv's and bullets. it's not because they're jewish (true skool jews aren't zionists, zion is within), it's because they're blinded by their money and they think they can save the world with their power and violence. if i watched tv everyday i think i would want to use power and violence to save the world too.
pu pu pu pu pu peace
lisa / miami
>> i think this is a CLASSIC example of paranoia. the Bildeberger piece was simply a Full LIST of attendees. u brought up the word Jewish. here’s the exact text:
Versailles, FranceBILDERBERG MEETINGS IN MAY
(BELIEVED BY MANY TO BE THE MASONIC CONSPIRACY (CALL IT WHAT U WILL) WHICH TRIES TO RULE THE WORLD, THIS GROUP MEETS ANNUALLY, THIS LAST ONE IN FRANCE)
'scuse me if am not UP! to speed with my conspiracies but does masonic mean jewish? they were anti-semitic last time i looked i could be wrong.
further, while i agree that these denatured, Systematised businessmen-lackeys (running dogs of capitalism was a great phrase!) may TELL themselves they’re “saving the planet” they are, IN REALITY, the very threat. i don’t care, like u say u don’t, whether they’re jewish, mongolian or scottish, but, if a majority are jewish, then don’t knock the honest messengers who only try to bring the truth.
anyone care to analyse the list for the jewish percentage? must confess i never even looked.
cool down, lisa. rage often arises from an unexamined idea being scraped against :)
p.s. don't let me get into the whole abortion thing.... did you know that it is legal in the states now to block an abortion clinic? they pushed that legislation right under our noses while everyone was fussing about war. war sucks, colonial rule over my uterus sucks, patriarchy sucks, blah blah blah.
>> now there’s a CLASSIC example of patriarchy! and the reason that’s not gone yet is probly because it comes at the opposite end of the neo tantric zone. in other words u women can civilise us monsters in bed (by showing us how to ‘let go’ i’d say) and have done so, but u can’t tame someone when he’s not physically present, right?
p.p.s. if you don't think that war is a symptom of patriarchy then you are severely deluded. yang is taking over...
>> u 100% missed the point i was making. perhaps u jumped up in rage after the first lines or something? the whole piece was discussing how come patriarchy has largely been removed from the Lovebed but appears unchanged at government (and abortion clinic) level, see?
perhaps that’s why u miss the positive in what’s happening. as i’ve been saying for years now, yang is not increasing, it’s on its dying legs, undermined from the lovebed UP!. it’s been pulled out to centre stage and is making its final desperate attempt to close pandora’s box again; and daily now, it is falling apart.
COVAH YER HEADZ!
>> uncovah yer headz!
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It would be a far better world if more politicians spent more time pounding the flesh rather than pressing it.
Every minute Clinton spent banging Monica Lewinski he wasn't screwing the rest of us or the world. Every time she knelt before that mighty cigar - she was a heroine.
Because - unlike most Americans - she could take everything a politician could put out - and swallow it!
Result - the greatest economic expansion ever - a massive decline in the murder rate - the biggest corporate party that anyone has ever attended - and something close to world peace was achieved.
Monica Lewinski deserves a frigging medal for all that.
After she stopped seeing the president, this country started going to hell.
[postcards from the Bleeding Edge]
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//YOU FEEDBACK DAVID ICKE AGAIN!
Dear Fraser.
I’ve been reading David Icke's books and seen him speak around 7 times over the last 12 years, and have received enormous amounts of ridicule for daring to defend him.
The 'Son of God' character assassination of him from the early 90's has well and truly stuck (he actually said "We are all sons and daughters of the Godhead" which isn't nearly as good a head line but is cool in my book).
>> every hippy or raver i’ve ever known has so informed me at some point or other :)
I don't think I'm easily duped, but I find myself believing a lot of what he says - he combines the spiritual with the conspiratorial in a uniquely powerful way and his firm belief that we are all aspects of One Consciousness instantly negates any and all racist jibes.
He’s very very very clear in repeating he’s not blaming 'The Jews' - he points out that some [repeat: ONLY SOME] of the people involved in the Shadowy Cabal that’s engineering world events happen to be Jewish.
>> statistically disproportionate is the nub of the ‘scandal’. so wot?! is the Left gonna demand some Irish on there?!!!
yes! for that’s what’s wrong with world domination wannabees, they’re not about to base things on some kinda fairness but on privilege and ruthlessness!
The truth is heflows to where info takes him and is refreshingly free from the oldRight/Left schism a lot of 'activists' are still struggling with. Information can be 'contaminated' if it comes from a 'Right' or a 'Left' source, and, in many arenas of debate, never the twain shall meet (i.e. if a Right Wing Militia discover some well sourced, verifiable info about the New World Order, the Left Wing won’t recognise or use it because its 'contaminated' ideologically speaking. This is obviously fooked, and I think old Ickey has the biggest balls of all to move beyond this and risk being unpopular with everyone!
>> am with you here. i just wish he’d get some wiser informants :( he gets 3 bits right (which is what you’re picking up on) but then he links the 4th in from totally the wrong view.
And just to pop a cherry on the cake - a theory that some top politicians etc are really non humans from the lower 4th dimension whose true form resembles a 'reptilian' guarantees a wave of indignant fury. But hey - what if we’re soooooooo conditioned that we’d dismiss out of hand a true[r] picture of our origins/ history/ destiny?
>> we all have a reptilian brain. which means the vampire elite are actually evolutionary throwbacks (from another planet<